part of me ..♥

“It’s every band’s right, you shouldn’t have to do fucking Glee. And then the guy who created Glee is so offended that we’re not, like, begging to be on his fucking show … fuck that guy for thinking anybody and everybody should want to do Glee…The Glee guy, what a fucking jerk. Slash was the first one. [Ryan Murphy] wanted to do Guns ‘n’ Roses and Slash is like, ‘I hate fucking musicals. It’s worse than Grease.’ Then [Murphy’s] like, ‘Well, of course he’d say that, he’s a washed up ol’ rock star, that’s what they fucking do.’ And then Kings of Leon say, ‘No, we don’t want to be on your show.’ And then he’s like, ‘Snotty little assholes … ’ And it’s just like, Dude, maybe not everyone loves Glee. Me included.”

—  Dave Grohl on Ryan Murphy

“Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being “in love” which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossoms had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two.”

Does the thought of being replaced hurt?
of course it does.

The person who you can’t stand the most is?
someone i don’t even know.

Are you a forgiving person?
i used to be too forgiving. now if you screw me over, i’m done. i can hold a grudge for a looong time.

Meet anybody new this week?
hmm.. nope!

What if someone asked you to be in a relationship with them?
have you met my boyfriend?

Are you the one that normally makes the first move?
never was, always too shy lol.

What will your next piercing be?
i do want another in my ear.. but idk. gotta be more professional (n)

Do you miss your childhood?
so, so much.

Do you have a teddy bear?
what girl doesn’t?

In the past week, have you cried?
yes.

If someone liked you right now would you want them to tell you?
well, it wouldn’t matter if they told me or not. i’m with someone, and that’s not changing anytime soon.

Have you ever kissed anyone within an hour of meeting them?
not that i can recall..

Has anyone told you they will love you forever?
yes.
 
Do you need to dye your hair?
i’ve been considering going brown. but i love being blonde. i need to re-do my highlights.

Are you an emotional person?
too emotional lately.

True love or a billion dollars?
i already have true love, so can i take the $$?

What’s your favorite color to wear?
pink! makes me feel like a barbie.

Do you open up to a lot of people?
definitely not.
 
How many tattoos would you get?
not sure, hoping to get one someday soon!

Do you like scary movies?
yes! but i get so scared.
 
How do you feel about gay marriage?
marriage is marriage, love is love. i’m for it.

Have you ever found someone you really really really liked?
yesyesyes.
 
Are you scared to fall in love?
i’m scared to get hurt.

Have you ever kissed someone with a tattoo?
yes.

Do you care too much/not at all/just enough?
things that i shouldn’t care about, i do. things that should matter to me, don’t.

Your phone is ringing. It’s an ex. What do you do?
don’t have caller id. but i’d be confused, and try to get off the phone as quick as possible.
 
What are you freakishly obsessed with?
something that i really shouldn’t be.

What is the last thing you did before bed last night?
umm.. put earplugs in i guess?

Do you trust people easily?
i never really have. it takes time with me.

Have you ever gotten in a car with people you just met?
yes.

Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
super cute.

Would you prefer being locked in a room with your ex or your worst enemy?
my ex.
 
Can money buy happiness?
heck yes. who hasn’t been upset and bought something new and felt better?
my point exactly.

What were you doing at midnight last night?
tryinnnnng to fall asleep.
 
Have you ever wanted someone you cant have?
of course.

Deep down is there any part of you sad at all?
a small part right now.

Do you hate the last boy you had a conversation with?
not at all.

What do you think about people who party a lot?
SHOTS SHOTS SHOTS SHOTS SHOTS
 
What is your opinion on tongue rings?
can be sexy. i wouldn’t get one though.

Do you have any plans tomorrow? What are they?
going to school, maaaaybe tanning.
 
Think back to September, were you in a relationship?
yepppp.

Are you afraid to tell your true feelings?
sometimes, when i feel crazy for feeling certain things.

Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
yes :)

Shit happens, life goes on?
gotta deal with shit as it comes.

On the opposite sex where do you like them to have piercings?
ears, nipple.

Do you blame yourself for anything?
yes, but nothing recent.

Want to be taller or shorter?
sometimes i wish i was a little shorter. so i could wear mega heels and not be the same height as my boyfriend lol.
 
Are you wanting any tattoos at the moment?
yessss

In your opinion which is the stronger emotion: love or hate?
hmm. they’re both equally strong.

Who is the last person you high-fived?
dad?

Why is your relationship status the way it is?
because i’ve been in love with this kid for the last 2 and a half years.

Do you wear your feelings all over your face?
i think so. some people can read me like a book
 
Does sex mean love?
not always.

Do you like people in general?
it amazes me how many assholes there are in the world.
 
Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurt?
yes.

Do you like to hold hands?
i wanna hold your haaaaand (8)
 
Do you drink lots of booze?
not everyday. but yes.

What do you think of guys who have girlfriends but let other girls wear their hoodies?
depends who the girl is. a good friend? ok. some random girl? fck u.

Do you still play video games?
mario kart!

When you get hurt, do you cover it up or do you let it out?
i keep it in for a while, and then i explode. not good.
 
Do you believe that marriage should be between a man and a woman?
that’s silly. it should be between two people in love, regardless of sex.

What helps you relax the most?
music, dancing, exercising.
 
What bed did you sleep in last night?
my own.
 
Do you have a picture of you kissing someone recently?
not like incredibly recently.
 
Do you think you could live without music?
never.

Does anyone have strong feelings for you?
my lover boy.

remember the days when Justin Timberlake and Britney Spears were dating?

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i was talking to someone yesterday, and they said they don’t go on facebook too much cuz when they go on they do things they shouldn’t do (creep) and then they get mad. lol. i feel like that goes for me too. i mean we all creep on facebook, whether you’re gonna admit it or not is another story. but we all do! and then i find things i wish i hadn’t seen and then i get pissed off. ugh it’s so true.

another thing i’ve said before is that you can’t have a relationship and facebook. there’s so much shit on facebook from years and years ago, and it’s never gonna go away. like i’ve seen random comments my boyfriend has left other girls like YEARS ago, before we even knew each other, and it pissed me off! there’s so much random things on my end too that i’ve commented to people. and it will always be there. i guess my problem is that i don’t take into account that it happend, oh idk, 3 YEARS AGO and not YESTERDAY. i hate facebook, it makes me crazy.

i made a deal with myself this morning: i’m gonna cut down on how often i go on facebook, and today i wouldn’t go on at all. hah, guess how many times i’ve been on today? moreee times than i can count. and it’s especially hard when you’re at school bored to death with nothing else to do :( so i guess today wasn’t the best day to try and start that.

i do notice though that on weekend, i don’t go one facebook. maybe once the whole weekend. so i guess i’m not as addicted as i thought, i go on the most at school when i’m bored. i wouldn’t even go so far as to say i’m addicted.

i read an article about there being such a thing as ‘facebook depression.’ i can believe it honestly. what kid in high school wants to see pics of amazing party that they weren’t invited to? or your boyfriend/girlfriend’s lovey dovey comments to their exes? i understand it, how some people could have facebook depression.

i don’t have facebook depression. i’m also not addicted to facebook. BUT i do need to cut down on how often i go on. so starting now, i’m not going back on facebook for the rest of the day.

i don’t know why it’s so hard for me to move on from things sometimes.  especially things that don’t matter?  like why should the same thing bother me for like a year and a half?  something that’s mostly made up in my head.  that makes me sound crazy.. like you know how something happens and then you think about it more and start being like “oh well what if it happened like this?” or “what if that happened too?” and then what ends up bothering you is not the facts of what happened, but the things that you come up with in your head when you think about it. ugh.  maybe it’s just me but idk.

i’m trying hard to live in the moment, and not in the past.  it’s hard for me not to look to the past and have regrets and be like oh i wish i did this and this.  i definitely look to the past too much, and want old times back.  and think that what happened in the past with other people matter in the present. 

one thing in particular when i think about the past: why did i look so gross in high school? like seriously, would it have killed me to pick up a flat iron or not wear those fuckin huge sweaters? like seriously, what was i thinking. oh well, you live and you learn right.

the past exists in my head everyday.  and not good things about the past.  not even my past! fuck.  i sound mental.  but i was looking through old pictures i have yesterday.. really can’t believe how young we all looked.

i’m gonna keep trying to live for now and not wish for yester-year.  cuz right now is really all that matters right.  so that’s my promise for the day: to make a sincere effort to live for now, not think about the past, and to generally just be happier.

Told you there would be another post today.

I go to Sheridan.  And I mean.. I like my program.  I’m totally satisfied with it, I’m doing well, like no complaints about that.  But at the same time I hate being here!  Last term I made a lot of friends, and I looked forward to come to school.  This term I only have ONE class with ONE of my friends.  Only one.  So I never see any of my other friends anymore cuz we all have different schedules, and it just sucks.  Like so hard.  I made new friends this term, but they’re not in all my classes either.  Like the only friend that I made this term that I would actually hang out with is never here.. so on days (like today) where I have 2 classes with a huge time gap in between, I’m alone.  So that’s basically every Thursday and Friday.  I like being by myself sometimes here, cuz I can do whatever and do pointless shit on my computer.  But I feel like I’m always alone here.  My boyfriend goes here too, and he’s on co-op right now.  So I don’t see him here this term.  Honestly I’m the biggest loner ever.. is it just me?  I just can’t wait for this semester to END.

Hello tumblr.  I’m Nicole and this is my first blog post.  I used to blog on myspace every single day when I had it, which was forrrreverrrr ago.  So I have a feeling these posts are going to be awkward for a little while.  I haven’t written or posted anything personal about myself in a long time.  Except status updates.  But those don’t count really, they’re only like a line or two.

Not too sure what to write about.. but since I have a two hour break in between classes today (and I’m here till 6PM -_-!) I think it’s safe to say that this won’t be the only post I’ll make today.

Well I’m in college.  I live in Canada.  I have a sandwich for lunch.  I plan on downloading music on my break.

LOL ok ending post one… now.