That I am beautiful, confident, strong woman. What doesn’t kill me makes me stronger. I am stronger than I give myself credit for. I know how to be happy. I want to remember every second of my co-op experience, and the lessons I’ve learned from it. I want to remember every laugh, smile, tear, kiss, hug and feeling, because it all made me who I am at this moment.
8. Where did you spend money?
Where didn’t I spend money!? I spent it on: tuition, clothes, makeup, condoms, alcohol, weed, camping, movies, Chinese food, my iPhone, online, lingerie, Christmas presents, vitamins, gym membership, concerts, transportation, my COACH PURSE <3 etc. etc. etc.
9. When were you most scared?
On my co-op interview and my first day of co-op! Sitting in the doctor’s office trying to gather the courage to talk to him about my issues. When my parents found out about said issues…probably the scariest day of my life.
10. What questions did you ask?
Am I where I’m supposed to be, am I doing the right things, am I being myself? Things of that nature.
11. Who surprised you?
It’s crazy to me how when you go through a crisis, who the people are that are still there beside you on the other side. I’m not suprised at who was there: my family, specifically my dad, boyfriend, best friend. But also the people who I realized weren’t there anymore, and that’s fine too.
12. What did you learn?
What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. I’m grateful in a weird way for the struggles I’ve went through; I don’t think I would be able to appreciate all the beauty in my life had I never went through them. I learned that there’s no reason to waste time on people who wouldn’t waste time on you. I’ve learned that it’s better to be true to yourself and be happy then to be fake to please a lot of people. I’ve learned how to love myself and how to love my life. While this year has been the most fucked up year I have ever gone through, I have never learned so many life lessons at the exact same time. I’m grateful for everything, and I hope 2012 will give me just as many experiences to learn from - lets hope they’re ALL good this time! :)